Well, I am not moving in the right direction. In discussing some things with a friend this week I came to a realization. I have found life frustrating recently. I have no doubt that this frustration has been evident to those around me. By all rights I really should be pretty happy. I am in the best health I have ever been. I have a job that I am pretty good at. What it comes down to is a lack of balance. I am good at my job, and the degree of autonomy I have fosters a nice sense of personal responsibility, and the fact that in general the harder I work the more I make is lovely. I also get to drive all over this great city. But I frequently put in several hours of work on my "off" days, and on days I work I can get stuck going so hard that I don't get lunch until 3 or 4 o'clock. The relative mindlessness that made my last job barely tolerable was exactly the sort of thing that allowed me to be successful in my weight loss journey. I could plan meals almost to the minute, and since I was in a supervisory position I could take my lunch practically the second I was hungry for it. I never got into the kind of situation that I have regularly now: I am so late on a meal that I binge eat. It is not purposeful, but I grab something quick and eat it too fast. I am not eating bad stuff, but I am not setting myself up for success. And I haven't figured out how to make that work with my current responsibilities. I spend so much time on work that not only do I fall short on my health, but I do not have time to work on the tertiary things I want for myself. It is going to take some serious discipline, and that has been in short supply recently. Summer is too much fun, and I have not made the best choices. Here are the numbers:
Current Weight: 285.4 lbs
Starting Weight: 440.2 lbs
Weight Loss This Week: -1lbs
Weight Loss in Year 2: -0.2 lbs
Weight Loss Total: 154.8 lbs
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Hmmm...I just don't get it. I don't know why you have been on a plateau for so long. Have you thought about hiring a personal trainer? I'm glad you still see a lot of positives in your life. You have a lot to be proud of.
ReplyDeleteHey! Come on that's great! You've maintained your low weight for several months! That's a success, and I think you should be proud of yourself. When/if you're ready to lose weight again, you will. For now, what if you're in this mindset: "I look great! I look better than I have in forever!" and that's why you're not continuing to lose weight? I'd say that's actually a pretty good place to be in--stick with that!
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