Oh boy. September 9th was the last time I posted on the blog. In the last 5 1/2 weeks I have not really been living the lifestyle I set up for myself over the past year and a half. In a way that was nice. Between my show and work the mental break was welcome. Devoting the time, effort, and energy needed to focus on losing weight was proving a bit much for me in that environment. Needless to say I have been regressing a bit. My clothes are fitting a bit tighter, my belly and face are a bit rounder, and a few of the minor issues I hadn't experienced in a while came back, like a bit of heartburn in the evenings. At this point rationalizing and excusing this, or trying to, does very little. I am not happy about it, but I shouldn't be. Every day away from this blog and from good habits made it a bit easier to forget about them on the next day as well. As the consequences of my inaction started to add up though I found myself really wanting to get back on track. I am not where I want to be yet. So I'm back!
Here is the lesson I will take the most heed of from the past few weeks: It did not take long for the process of living healthy to seem incredibly daunting after falling off the wagon, despite a year and a half's worth of evidence proving I could do this. Its amazing. Some bad habits came back pretty fast, and to be honest I expected some of that. I am addicted to sugar. I know that. I have compulsive urges to go buy candy. I was not ridiculously unhealthy either, but I did overeat and the lack of discipline got me into trouble with meal scheduling, and those things really add up. I'm back now though. I know what I need to do. Last night I cooked up a bunch of chicken that I have to eat over the next 5 or 6 days. I have Brussels Sprouts, peppers, and lettuce in the house, so I have the ingredients to capitalize on the rest of the week. I will be logging my calories for the foreseeable future, and I think that posting them here is not a bad idea to keep me honest. Without rationalizing this I would really like to use the "break" as a positive. My show is about to close and work is slowing down. The excuses are falling away. They are even building a Subway on my block so that I can have a great meal option when I don't feel like cooking. I need to take advantage of this time, and I plan to.