A late post today, but rest assured I weighed myself at the proper time. I had to rush out to pick up my headshot reproductions, which look great. That means my off hours (not that there will be many with rehearsals starting in earnest) will be spent working on submissions. Chicago agents, prepare. Like every good actor my weight on my resume is not entirely accurate, and I have toyed with the idea of removing that altogether. My picture is a good representation of my build, why do they need my weight? They are not casting a number. What are your thoughts, friends? As you think about it, here are the real numbers:
Current Weight: 293.8 lbs
Starting Weight: 440.2 lbs
Weight Loss This Week: 5 lbs
Weight Loss Total: 146.4 lbs
So much for the off week I was worried about. Talking about my feelings on closing Spelling Bee certainly helped me get a better handle on myself, but I think the extra bit of rest is what really helped. Also the fact that easily 60% of my non-breakfast meals this week consisted of lettuce and chicken breast with different dressings/salsas to keep it interesting. I am definitely back in the right head space about a lot of things. Things are starting to be exciting again. As an analytical guy I have been examining what makes the way I handled my recent experiences different than I would have in the past. My mini-depression certainly lasted for far shorter a time than I would have expected, and my weight results were pretty fantastic. It goes back to doing what I am afraid to do, which is name the fear and don't hide it. I hide it because it is personal and I don't want pity or even understanding. I want to fix it myself. I bit the bullet and put it out there this time. I didn't get much in the way of response, nor did I want to, but even speaking it aloud was enough to take ownership of it. And then it really didn't matter that much anymore. I have been known to think about things too much and this is a good lesson for me. The sooner I act on a situation the sooner I have a measure of control over that situation. Now, can I do it in the future. We'll see.